Church of memoir,
Cloistered in my name are ten lives
I did not live
in favor of a sublime 11th.
What is better than best?
What can joy can be discarded for ecstasy?
The taste of salt lines my mouth
when I look back.
translated to Xhosa, Afrikaans, and back
Church of Love
I find joy
while I lay cloistered in my ten lives.
Auroras swirl beyond my reach.
They will not live.
There is a reason I am so inordinately fond of 11.
What is better than a lot?
Why have I ignored peace?
It tasted of salt in my mouth.
Power lines guiding me back home.
Church of Love
Separate the gaiety from the joy.
Lonely in my ten lives,
it is as though they live without me.
How do I dispose of gaiety?
Bride of comparison,
you have found me
living through lacy love letters
to the glowing voice of the world.
I have loved and lived
like a euphoric angel,
all over the world.
See how North America quakes beneath my hands?
Hear the tender whispers of my name from Europe.
I am tired of molds and braces and boxes.
What They have is not better than what I have.
Always They come with a capital T and claws.
They possess than,
But I hold hands with then,
and waltz over the sea.
An envelope locked out of sight,
buttercups giggling in the fields –
and then a pink fog rolls over the view.
It is all so dreamy.
Don’t bring a mirror here.
Gloomy, graceful ghosts
lounge under the beach umbrella.
They are nudists.
They are like frosted glass.
No sunburns will befall them
as they get drunk
and carouse on the beach where they
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Today I read something really interesting in my devotional. It talks about God wanting us to pay attention to the way He designed us. It says we should dive into the things God has designed us to naturally focus on and that we should examine where our talents lay. Our talents are God given, and they tell us something about what He would like us to do with our lives.
How did God design you? What are your gifts and passions, and how are you using them? The answers to these questions can tell you a lot about how your Creator wants you to live.
I need to give this a lot of thought, especially now that Craig has decided we are stopping at one child. Right now Angelica fills my days, but she is growing fast and will soon be grown. I only have 14.5 years til she is 18. I will only be 42 when she goes to college. How can I make sure my life is still productive and vital after she is gone? What will I do when there isn’t a little person who needs me?
I will have to find a way to harness my gifts (what are my gifts?) and pursue my passions. I don’t intend to go back into the work force. But maybe I’ll open an art supply store or maybe I’ll volunteer through a church or start a ministry or open an art gallery or teach classes in something. I know I’ll be writing. I will write no matter what. I know I’ll be scrapbooking. I know I’ll be blogging and taking photos. These are all things that I can do in the season of motherhood and beyond to further enrich my life and keep my identity. But what causes and passions can I pursue when Angelica is grown that maybe I can’t pursue while she is young? What does God want me to do with the second half of my life, now that I won’t be raising children into my 40s and middle age?
I’m excited to find out what life has in store for me, and to design a life that my Creator wants me to have. In my devotional it talks about God being excited to take on the journey of our lives with us, and I love to think of that. Maybe God is as excited as I am about the next twenty years, and the twenty years beyond that. May God help me to craft a creative, fulfilling, accomplished life that touches the people around me.
Eleven mirrors watch videos of sky.
Clouds breed above the enemy.
What sleeps inside my teeth
that my hunger has become so fragile?
My face is a tapestry unfinished.
Below the town a garden planted by boys
grows velvet tumbleweed.
Today my mom bought me a little lime pillow. It is going to jazz up my green, green sofa. Here’s a photo of it on a chair at the store. This week I’ll get a photo of it on my green sofa. It is so fresh and verdant and wet looking. It looks divine.
Grandma also got Angelica a bubble blowing kit. Angelica had fun outside making bubbles. We had a lovely day together. My dad was there too. He has some time off work for a change.