
Month: August 2018
Breath
Lockpicks reveal the world
gnarled like dusk.
chloroformed dolls
in their Friday night best,
monthly installments of fear,
Stoned stones,
Testify the presence of a blueing breath.
Screaming in your room,
The horrors of an indifferent night.
Becoming
the spider that wove my house
has only loaned it to me.
At my table,
cigarettes burn and puff
from nothing.
Everything is an appearing act
in a universe of inexplicable birth.
When the spider lumbers back from
his hunt,
I will be given a key to my blood,
and I will live in my life
like wet in water.
The Untrained Saints in No Weather
I am making a copy of five dollars,
five water pipes,
five needles.
The closure of weather
Leaves the continental castle confused.
Today is an apartment,
With five undisciplined disciples
Learning to make music from movement.
I am a mystic,
The visions of my ears divine.
Mathematics and Art
Moving faster than math,
I ride the train to the city.
Lines, gradations, numbers.
So many nice colors,
Cool chaos,
The air slick with liquid nitrogen.
An ornament,
My education dangles
from the tree in city center.
In the reservoir,
My distilled ambition eddying.
Through the equation of church bells,
A garland of neon loss.
Which sun is silent, low?
The near one that blinds
Or the farther that fries?
In a clear city,
rumors
give you an inert art.
Our Teeth
I have the red envelope.
Inside,
A letter to short romantic desires.
Above,
My blinking search.
The watchman guards his watch.
The heavens crack.
Our teeth fill in the gaps.
BJU Press
We have decided to go another direction in our home schooling. I have ordered the BJU online curriculum. She will watch videos online everyday that cover math and language arts, and through the subject of language arts science and social studies will be studied as well. There are corresponding worksheets to do and little projects. I am excited to get started on this with her. We showed her a sample video of the kindergarten math and she seemed to like it and get into it.
I actually looked into this curriculum months ago. Actually years ago even, as I was beginning to ponder exactly how I was going to homeschool Angelica. I was worried that videos might bore her, and I wondered if she would need me teaching and if the videos would be too much of an easy way out. But as I have found out from having her do the Time4Learning Subscription Service, she loves videos. Or at the very least she loves those. And doing pure workbook assignments with nothing else to go with it, like we did with Christian Light Education, is something she hates. She likes to have audio and visual and colors and possibly to do a little kinesthetic movement. These videos seem to encourage some of that. And it’s a more well-rounded education than what we were using because kindergarten covers science and social studies, even if they don’t have their own videos devoted to those subjects. I watched a sample language arts video and was impressed. I hope that the worksheets are well designed and that Angelica really get something out of them. And I like the fact that each day I have to lay out her work for her and we follow along with the videos and then we do the work that’s assigned in the parent guide each day. I can enter grades for her online through the parent portal. Starting in fifth grade I think students take their tests and quizzes online, but until then I will be grading them, which I think I like just as well.
I’m trying not to get my hopes up, but I really think that at the very least this will go much better than the last curriculum. I will have so much more help teaching because it won’t be just me and my methodology. She’ll be watching an actual professional teacher teach the first time she hears the lesson and then I will just be reinforcing the lesson. Between laying out her work for her each day, pulling up the videos and being ready to stop them at the appropriate time for her to do activities, and grading her assignments, I will still be heavily involved in her education. But she will have the audio visual stimulation that seems to keep her interested in school, and I will have the assistance of having a professional teacher give her her lessons. So please dear Lord let this work out.
Mutual
During the summer,
shining in my mouth,
the mirror you use
when you delete your names,
hard as dreams.
You will disappear to deny it.
I write a thesis on sneakiness
And thieving.
Time of molded bread,
famine dance.
In the background,
a man,
little fire of love.
You open the windows to me,
but shut up all the doors,
comment on my perfect blood.
During our mutual culture,
your flashlight sprouts at a time
strained power goes out.
Guns
in front of my text.
Nature at Dawn

The Last Summer
At my window,
A gun.
In my mind,
extraordinary sexual and living acts
Demonstrated in dark colors.
The scales of the grain feed
Swaying with an unconscionable math.
After the man’s house grows rats
to provide labels and epidemics,
One will advise you at home while you die
out of the hail of the heat,
found in water spots.