Unrelenting, unrepenting dismay trickles through culture like tree sugar through a fungal network. My ego glows in the dark. Under the blacklight, sin splattered everywhere. I used to dance when I had feet. Now I float with the  other ghosts of dances past, my spirit sagging whenever the music stops. In the trees, revolution. From the women’s arms tangling children like branches, the infestation of revolutionary thought. The dayglo atrocities of banal government are a sign pointing to the cemetery. Here, the piñatas are people. Bust open a politician and watch the graft pour out, sugary and deadly. Democracy tends her Fire by the river and knows her true daughters by name.

Tidal dreams of octopi slip-slurping over slippery stones in pools of liquid crystal flood my mind. Love is prehistoric and present. In the dead of night, my lover will come to be on a magic carpet remnant from Floors R’ Us. In the honesty of daylight, something with seven more brains than I have listens to me spin my yellow yarns, wondering why my stories are so simplistic.

Crusty Tuesdays stick flyers about a month for sale in my old, chipped mailbox. I need a deal. Math has been chomping in my periphery. I threaten him with my angry blood. Rage washes over the periwinkle, petrified plane. Take my hands. Sew them to the monster you keep chained in your office behind the ad soaked computer monitor that logs your wasted time. I feel I am not real, which makes me true and evanescent. I’d like to buy a month. September, perhaps, savory and amber. Or July, polished until it gleams. But my funds cannot be found. Money hears my name and prances off to another pretend person.

The grifting dawn begs for someone to appreciate her slovenly humidity, but none of us have gils and we are tired of swimming through air so thick that you can hear the water say to it, “Damn, you’re fine!” Summer calls me from a landline and asks me to pick up a movie at Blockbuster, and tell her how the children are enjoying their candy cigarettes. The children bob up and down like balloons, high on the thrill of looking adult. Fall is more subdued. He will write to me with a quill pen and say he isn’t coming, Summer has Heaven’s big brass door locked. Then he comes quietly, all at once. The water rains down on rotting leaves and we celebrate our breath, the rattle of our arthritic bones just beginning to clang as Winter caresses the door handle with her bony white hand.

Construction paper everywhere. I feel the colors with my fingertips. A rainbow of raw, unfettered childishness and possibility. The garden of papers that was a rainy day recess in Connecticut necessity. I had castles in mind. Later on I would mug Baudelaire and I found the mechanism of “beauty is truth, truth beauty,” ticking away like a watch in his left pocket. On this day, though, raindrops trample over me. My glaring deficiency of virtue and economy are on a television for everyone to marvel at whether they want to or not. Some day in the not too distant past I will get up and turn it off. Fear is an organist playing “Bitch” by Meredith Brooks, over and over again in the corner.

A flower never taunts a bee. Digging ditches in the prison of my psyche I find a sapphire. Quickly I put it over my eyes and peer through it to see the underside of this gossiping world – the truth quilted and fluffed and made by needles and violence. Stretching toward the sun is a talent of plants. Stretching toward the moon the predilection of women. And men? The men tend bee hives into the horizon.

In a world of cherished pink and heavenly yellow, I come singing. But slowly softness begins to cling to me like my shadow. His hands titillate my nipples as I step out of the steaming, mysterious shower. When my bones move out of place, he gently refashions me like furniture. The air is as cool as silk, my dreams hot as rumor. My man, tall and stony, wraps me in velvet and lays me on a pillow of desire that melds to my body. Eventually it is as though I was always a cloud, beautiful, billowy, and threatening the earth with my crisp, glassy lightning.