Emerald air ripe before the rain,
The lightning waiting in the frightened trees.
What if the smoke came before the fire?
What falls cool and nourishing but rain and salvation?
Emerald air ripe before the rain,
The lightning waiting in the frightened trees.
What if the smoke came before the fire?
What falls cool and nourishing but rain and salvation?
She is stove-mouthed
and thinks hideously.
Between her teeth are scrolls
from cities asleep.
Death cartwheels on my lawn
mostly to impress her,
And because in his spare time he has a pinwheel fetish.
After dark she will write my eulogy and
I will thank her
and never know her name.
Pink ghosts make HIPPA violations.
A bed is growing into me.
One ghost whispers you are going to die
And another giggles.
I know I say
But not today and not tomorrow.
Walls hum.
My pills confer with my blood.
Pills are day makers
And skin often wants no hours dragged out of me.
Better to die like this, my sunburn peel once explained to me,
Young and perfect.
A museum of possibility.
Instead I gorge on sweet filled pills
And make mondays
The clock admires me.
Pretty ghosts titter.
My head screams. When the pills make days my head tries to send them back.
A hand holds my hand.
The morning binges and the evening purges.
Another day dead another in birth canal
Persuading new residents is such a drag,
Hissed the rosest spirit.
Black sex sings like a siren against my white sheets.
What quilted questions can I answer,
with my tongue lodged in your pink lips,
while the sadomasochistic sunlight slinks slowly
through blue blinds?
The narrator is mopping the floor with my tears,
which for him fall like rain through a hole
in the roof.
What promise this day had,
born at the height of the malleable moon.
What now,
since favor, faith, and fancy have
disintegrated?
The narrator begins with an article
that will barely clothe me from the cold.
I have been outsonneted by a suction cup,
Clinging to my window like a starfish to the sea.
Lately my similes get away from me,
Dogs always unearthing hideous bones in
My backyard.
The curious climate of my moist mind
Is most conducive to marigolds, azaleas,
The pancreas.
My face is all sugar,
My tongue a cola.
See the stained glass the suction cup holds?
Memorabilia from an unremembered saint.
The floor is a guess,
is clear like water.
It is raining June in my hair.
My clothes are brimming with butterflies.
I am a sour after note to their beauty.
I was born to rise
to shatter sky.
Instead a jealous math
embalming me
fills me with mud.
Somber crescent shaped thoughts
dig into my mind like fingernails.
I have never had fingernails.
I am made of teeth and zippers,
always coming together then pulling apart.
My mind is the zenith of razors,
My hair the ambition of every death wish.
Recapturing yourself will be easy.
White still in the bedroom,
structure from private, necessary snow.
dreaming of silence.
Your mind is a playground of artillery.
Capturing the sense of yourself will be hard,
Lost 2 feet tall in a field of chaff.
The women have needles and no yarn.
A man sits toward the curdling sun,
his face a mouth.
Sound your siren song
A gentle offering of wisteria wishes
and sulking letters.
Give her a sonorous rope to tie round her wrist
a little balloon bobbing desperately toward mass.
The cessation of Fire
in me is like a white wall of Holy cold.
I manufacture crosses.
I carry most of them.
Others I strap to my man and my baby.
Suffering sleeps at the end of my bed,
takes up space.
drives me away in the middle of the night.
Sometimes I drive to a gold mine and wish for another God
if I cannot have another me.